{"id":279,"date":"2019-04-12T01:06:18","date_gmt":"2019-04-12T01:06:18","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/cohort21.com\/jenniferweening\/?p=279"},"modified":"2019-04-12T01:06:18","modified_gmt":"2019-04-12T01:06:18","slug":"stumbling-toward-my-question-finally","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/cohort21.com\/jenniferweening\/2019\/04\/12\/stumbling-toward-my-question-finally\/","title":{"rendered":"Stumbling toward my question… finally."},"content":{"rendered":"

The brilliant @gnichols<\/a> and @jmedved<\/a>\">@jmedved<\/a><\/span> have often said that sometimes just getting yourself in front of the right question can be the work of an entire season of Cohort 21. That\u2019s where I\u2019m at this year. Despite knowing since the 3rd F2F that my HMW question was all wrong for me for this point in time, following a 5 Whys protocol with @lbettencourt<\/a><\/span> that ended in tears (yes, it\u2019s true), I still seemed unable to land upon a better focus for my Action Plan. As it stands officially, my question is this: How might we engage always-busy faculty in meaningful and just-in-time PD?\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n

Not a bad question, to be sure. But I know deep down that I chose my question based on the fact that I had already come up with a plan that would allow me to check off that box and consider myself successful at another season of Cohort 21. But that is so not the point of Cohort 21.<\/p>\n

After the soul-searching conversation with @lbettencourt<\/a><\/span>, I also knew that if I was being honest with myself, worrying about engaging the faculty in my new tech integration position was not super high on my list of pain points. If we\u2019re supposed to be trying to fix a big challenge in our practice, I had to finally admit that, despite trying to avoid it, my greatest challenge this year was about finding a balance for myself in my work and personal life. Even trying to put it out here in this space I struggle with feelings that it\u2019s too selfish a question to be worthy of inclusion.<\/p>\n

Before we get to it (I\u2019m stalling because I haven\u2019t actually figured out the wording yet but I\u2019m convinced I\u2019ll figure it out by the time I write out my thought process), there were a few things that got me to this place.<\/p>\n

First, @amacrae<\/a><\/span>\u2018s Action Plan that led to the CIS Ontario Women\u2019s Network got me thinking hard about the power that we women have to support one another. So many of us are in the same boat of struggling to be everything to everyone in our lives and feeling inadequate. That night at UCC connected me with so many likeminded and similarly-challenged colleagues. I had an amazing chat with @swelbourn<\/a><\/span> and a few others and I remember talking very little about school or teaching, but instead commiserating about the challenges of being a working mother. The session I attended with Stephanie Young on \u201cGender Biases in the Workplace\u201d provided some honest information about the real struggles of pursuing a career and raising a family simultaneously.<\/p>\n

Second, the Twitter chat that I hosted earlier in the year was focused on finding balance and seeking personal wellness. It was such a great chat and it felt to me like it was a topic that needed to be talked about. So many of us struggle during the school year to find time to self-care, or feel guilt when we stop working for an hour to do something that is good for our own mental health. We all have different individual challenges but it seemed clear that balance is for sure a challenge for most of us.<\/p>\n

Third, my blog post during the March Break Is this the new normal got such a surprising and supportive response from the C21 community. I was afraid to come right out and say that I was struggling with these things, but I felt so supported by everyone who left a comment with a word of encouragement or understanding. (Thanks @lfarooq<\/a> @amacrae<\/a><\/span> @edaigle<\/a><\/span> @jmedved<\/a> @acampbellrogers<\/a><\/span>!)<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Finally, today at lunch I sat down with two incredible female colleagues who were already engaged in a conversation about, surprise, surprise: feeling guilt and exhaustion about being a working mother. It was like a message from the gods. On this day, the eve of the C21 final F2F, I couldn\u2019t ignore it any longer. I had to change my question. One thing that Gisa mentioned, which I couldn\u2019t get out of my head for the rest of the day, was that she would love to interview some other working mothers and find out what their greatest challenges were, and what hacks they\u2019ve developed over the years in order to manage. As soon as she said this, I could see the documentary video forming in my head. This was what I wanted to do.<\/p>\n

How might we recognize and share the challenges of being women\/mothers\/wives\/teachers\/coaches\/fill-in-the-blank-with-the-other-hats-you-wear ?\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

So I have no fancy slide deck summary of my journey. I\u2019m sorry everyone. It\u2019s after 9 p.m. and 4:30 a.m. will be here far too soon. But I\u2019ve finally landed myself in front of the question that makes me excited to start to find ways to answer it. And it might not be #perfect but it\u2019s #goodenough for now.\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n

Thanks for reading, and for all of your support on this roller coaster of a year. See you all tomorrow.
\nJen<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

The brilliant @gnichols and @jmedved have often said that sometimes just getting yourself in front of the right question can be the work of an entire season of Cohort 21. That\u2019s where I\u2019m at this year. Despite knowing since the 3rd F2F that my HMW question was all wrong for me for this point in … Continue reading “Stumbling toward my question… finally.”<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":127,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"wds_primary_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[3],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-279","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-action-plan"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/cohort21.com\/jenniferweening\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/279","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/cohort21.com\/jenniferweening\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/cohort21.com\/jenniferweening\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cohort21.com\/jenniferweening\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/127"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cohort21.com\/jenniferweening\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=279"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/cohort21.com\/jenniferweening\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/279\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":280,"href":"https:\/\/cohort21.com\/jenniferweening\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/279\/revisions\/280"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/cohort21.com\/jenniferweening\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=279"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cohort21.com\/jenniferweening\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=279"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/cohort21.com\/jenniferweening\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=279"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}