{"id":150,"date":"2019-03-03T19:18:25","date_gmt":"2019-03-03T19:18:25","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/cohort21.com\/jenniferbairos\/?p=150"},"modified":"2019-03-05T14:45:34","modified_gmt":"2019-03-05T14:45:34","slug":"i-feel-like-my-teaching-life-is-a-hot-mess-right-now-but-i-kind-of-love-it","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/cohort21.com\/jenniferbairos\/2019\/03\/03\/i-feel-like-my-teaching-life-is-a-hot-mess-right-now-but-i-kind-of-love-it\/","title":{"rendered":"I feel like my teaching life is a hot mess right now, but I kind of love it"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>If my professional learning has done anything this year, it has turned me into a hot mess. A good hot mess. But a hot mess just the same.<\/p>\n<p>Last year I was organized. I knew what lesson came next in my unit. I knew which Google Docs to use and when to use them. I knew which resources to have at the tips of my fingers in my classroom. I had my timing for lessons, learning activities, and projects down to the minute.<\/p>\n<p>This year, while I&#8217;m keeping many of the overall learning goals for my classroom the same, the path to which we achieve these learning goals is changing.\u00a0 And I don&#8217;t always know my next step.<\/p>\n<p>Which leads me to this&#8230;<\/p>\n<p><strong>I feel like a hot mess teacher this year, but I believe my students are better off for it.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/cohort21.com\/jenniferbairos\/files\/2019\/03\/school-1974369_1920.jpg\"><img fetchpriority=\"high\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-154\" src=\"https:\/\/cohort21.com\/jenniferbairos\/files\/2019\/03\/school-1974369_1920.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"1920\" height=\"1280\" srcset=\"https:\/\/cohort21.com\/jenniferbairos\/files\/2019\/03\/school-1974369_1920.jpg 1920w, https:\/\/cohort21.com\/jenniferbairos\/files\/2019\/03\/school-1974369_1920-300x200.jpg 300w, https:\/\/cohort21.com\/jenniferbairos\/files\/2019\/03\/school-1974369_1920-768x512.jpg 768w, https:\/\/cohort21.com\/jenniferbairos\/files\/2019\/03\/school-1974369_1920-1024x683.jpg 1024w, https:\/\/cohort21.com\/jenniferbairos\/files\/2019\/03\/school-1974369_1920-676x451.jpg 676w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 1920px) 100vw, 1920px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>In December and January, my Cohort 21 Action Plan had <a href=\"https:\/\/cohort21.com\/jenniferbairos\/2018\/11\/29\/increasing-student-confidence-and-competence-in-fsl-an-action-plan\/\">very clear goals<\/a>. I generated a meaningful list of items I could check off a to do list.<\/p>\n<p>And check them off I did.<\/p>\n<p>You see, I&#8217;m really good at organization.<\/p>\n<p>I <a href=\"https:\/\/cohort21.com\/jenniferbairos\/2018\/11\/12\/taking-our-oral-communication-temperature\/\">surveyed my students<\/a>. I <a href=\"https:\/\/cohort21.com\/jenniferbairos\/2019\/01\/01\/the-best-pd-ive-done-in-ages-other-than-c21-obvs\/\">visited and observed a teacher<\/a> I admired in Ottawa. I reviewed some old materials I want to start using again. I read <a href=\"https:\/\/cohort21.com\/jenniferbairos\/2018\/12\/29\/quiet-by-susan-cain\/\">a book<\/a>. I started <a href=\"https:\/\/cohort21.com\/jenniferbairos\/2018\/12\/27\/flipgrid-a-success-story\/\">making changes in my classroom<\/a> with new technology.<\/p>\n<p>But I&#8217;ve finished all of the &#8220;things&#8221; on my list and now I&#8217;m testing out what I&#8217;ve learned. I&#8217;m living in a phase of experimentation, and it&#8217;s messy. It&#8217;s absolutely not organized.<\/p>\n<p>Initially, I had this great idea that I would give myself permission to only experiment with one class. If I&#8217;m only playing around with one grade, I&#8217;d save myself from this exact feeling of hot mess-ness everywhere in my day.<\/p>\n<p>But (unfortunately? fortunately?) I kept learning new ideas that were perfect for each of my different classes, and I was too excited to wait. I wanted to test them all, so I decided if I was going to play with my program and my teaching practice, I&#8217;m going all in.<\/p>\n<p>It&#8217;s exciting and fun, and I kind of love it. It&#8217;s make me more flexible as a person, that&#8217;s for sure.<\/p>\n<p>However, my Cohort 21 Action plan for February to April has pretty much two things on it. <em>Try out new interactive oral communication learning activites in the classroom. Decide which ones work and do them again.<\/em><\/p>\n<p>This is not what I thought the end of my Cohort 21 year would look like. I&#8217;m sure by April, I&#8217;ll still be in this experimentation phase: Discover\/Create new ways to get my students speaking to each other in French. Try them out. Repeat.<\/p>\n<p>In a future post, I plan to share exactly what I&#8217;ve learned about interactive oral communication in the FSL\u00a0 classroom and what learning activities have, so far, been successful in my classes.<\/p>\n<p>For now, it&#8217;s been a learning curve for me, a person who craves a plan, to live in this space of the unknown. This phase of testing things out. It&#8217;s ironic that while I feel a bit less certain of what we&#8217;re doing, because much of it is new to me, my students are building their confidence with language.<\/p>\n<p>I can already tell some of our experiments are working. Many of my students are speaking more French in class than they have in a long while.\u00a0 We moved into a new classroom a few weeks ago, and I think that has helped as well. It was a fresh start in a different, new space with different, new expectations.<\/p>\n<p>I don&#8217;t know if I would have been brave enough to try out so many new things in my classroom all at once if I didn&#8217;t have such wonderful support from my Cohort 21 team, my Montcrest colleagues, and our school administration. Their encouragement that I&#8217;m on the right track definitely keeps me going on days where I&#8217;m feeling particularly hot mess-y.<\/p>\n<p>Jenn<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>If my professional learning has done anything this year, it has turned me into a hot mess. A good hot mess. But a hot mess just the same. Last year I was organized. I knew what lesson came next in my unit. I knew which Google Docs to use and when to use them. 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